Hurtful Truth

"Am I better of dead? Am I better of a quitter?" 

These are some lines that caught my attention and made me interested with the song "Nothing" by The Script. 

Have you experienced it? To love and be loved and suddenly things changed between the both of you unexpectedly. It's like you are cut by a knife. Deep inside you're bleeding but no one seems to notice because they were all blinded by the mask you're wearing. They might tell you that "It's okay. Everything's gonna be alright". Yes, very easy as it may seem but the hardest part is like this:

"I'll confess to her I'm still inlove but I heard was nothing. I wanted words but all I heard was nothing"

Can you still manage to hide the pain in instances like this? Well, the silence of a person can kill. It's like you want to explore what she felt and feels about you after you went your seperate ways. You want to know the answers to all your questions you have in your mind. You want to shout to her all your hurts but the hardest part is not even a single word came out of her mouth. The hardest part is that you know you couldn't live without her. Yes, how suicidal it is. Its like your taking your last step and last breath. She became the big part of your life.

I wish that life could be more easy. But the reality is that the more you deal with it, the more it will hurt. The more you remember everything about the two of you, the more she forgets about you. Moving on doesn't mean giving up. Sometimes, it's the best way to say "I love you but I want you to be happy". Letting go is hard. But believe me, time will come that you will forget all the pain. You will learn to forgive and forget. Just learn to deal with it. Do not even show your weakness and tears.