Last goodbye

What would you do when you are hurt? Do you really need to cry out loud or just keep all your hurts inside you until suddenly you are barely breathing and feel like dying?

My heart is pumping fast. Am I still in reality? My eyes are filled with tears but no! I will not cry over you! I can still manage to smile to cover up my broken heart. No one even notice the sadness you made, and no one will. They will not even feel the pain you caused me. I'm crying inside and damn! No one could hear it! My heart is dying. Maybe I need you to ease the pain but no, I must learn how to forget you. The things we shared, the way I held you in my arms, the way we kissed and everything about you. I don't know if I will be able to manage the pain. I can't even eat and sleep. I want to shout my hurts but I can't because they all know that I'm strong and no one could ever turn me down.

Now that I'm alone I cry myself to death until it will not hurt anymore. My fist is shaking. I don't think if I can make another night living. This is my last goodbye. I might end up living happily, or you will just blame yourself tomorrow. Goodbye